TMI #94

1. Toilet paper: over, under, or what the hell are you talking about?
under... but I think that's wrong, I think the *proper* way is supposed to be over....

2. Toilet when you are done: everything up, seat down but lid up, everything down?
seat down, lid up... I live alone so don't have to worry about annoying anyone...

3. When was the last time you kissed someone not your significant other? [I am talking about a kiss with some gusto not just a little hello or goodbye peck]
well... that would be Sunday... he's not really my SO, we just started hanging out a couple weeks ago...

4. Would you rather have you significant other (this can be a hypothetical SO) have sex with someone else or fall in love with someone else? [You have to pick one.]
ug, both horrible choices, I'll take the sex though... to have your SO fall in love with someone else is just too much...

5. If you had $1,000,000 to give away, how would you divide it up? Who and how much?
I'm sure I'm supposed to say a few random charities here but I think If I had to slpit it up it would go around to my family & friends... how cool would that be to pay off my moms house & cars for her, same with my sister... give a bunch to my cosest friends to pay off their bills, car and a down on a house...

Bonus (as in optional): Tell us something that very few people know about you.
hmmm... this is a tough one.... the only thing I can maybe think of is there was this one time with this guy and a strap-on...

Happy Tuesday!

Another Moment

I love how we are never able to make it through a movie....

We'll be sitting on the couch and I'll catch you looking over at me and smiling that adorable grin that just begs for a kiss so I'll kiss you, no tongue at first just sliding my teeth across your bottom lip but I can't seem to pull away and stop so they get more urgent and tongue touches tongue fingers pull on hair and grip clothing. Your hand moves down to gently cup my breast and lightly pinch my nipple causing me to gasp then you run your fingers down my body and rest them between my legs and start rubbing my clit through my jeans. This draws a moan from me and I dig my nails into the back of your neck.

You stand up and take me by the hand, leading me to the bedroom. We help each other out of our clothes and you start to guide me to the bed but this time I want to please you, you're always so sweet to me. I turn you a & push you back down on to the bed, following you I bend down and slowly lick you up your thigh drawing a sharp breath from you. I move over to the other side and do the same thing this time rubbing my cheek against your hardness as I continue licking up to your stomach, my tongue circling your belly button, teasing you... I then go back down and start by slowly licking your hardness from base to tip circling around the top when I get there then closing my lips over you and lightly sucking. I tease you for a bit, just sucking on the tip, barely going down then in one motion I go down taking as much of you into my mouth as I can, causing you to cry out. I stay there for a few seconds, letting you savor the sensation before I start moving up and down on you slowly at first then picking up the pace, using my tongue at the same time, driving you crazy... god, I love listening to you.

You get to the point where you can't take it anymore and need to be inside me, you grab my arms and pull me up on top of you sliding into me. We both move to meet each others strokes, savoring the incredible feeling of being so close, so deep inside one another until we reach the point where we can't hold back any longer and explode into one another.

We lay there shaking, holding each other and I close my eyes and just smile...

thank you...

Whatever higher power it is out there currently working in my favor, I say thank you... I'm having an amazing time right now.

Please let it continue...

Rambling on...

Lately I've realized that I'm truly happy for just about the first time in my life (did I write about this already?). I mean, I haven't always been a miserable person or anything, I just kinda always felt likesomething was missing from my life. I know, now you're thinking it's because I me I met JS but it's not, I've been feeling like this for a while now. I used to be the friend who it's next to impossible to get me to commit to anything social and usually making up my mind kicking & screaming at the last minute. Of course, any time I did go out I'd usually have a fabulous time and ended up being the one who went home last.

Not so much this year.

This year I'm the girl who wants to be out every night living it up! I have discovered that I love hanging out at bars, I've met some of the best people there recently. No, I am not your typical barfly... and I hate that term. I've also discovered that I'm hot... I've always known that I'm pretty and never really had a problem attracting guys but it's been really interesting to go to a bar, pick out the guy that I want to take home and actually accomplish it just about every time. Yes, guys are horny but I'm picky so it's not like I'm goin home with the desperate ones.. ohhhh, no.... if I'm naked, you're hot too.

oh yea, so back to being happy.... it's a trip and I like it. I smile all the time, I like being out and meeting new people and I'm not afraid to be the person who starts the conversation with someone new. I'm even finally ok with going places by myself. I'm really having a good time and I've realized that while I'd love to have someone to share my life with, I don't *need* someone. Wow, that took HOW long?

Have I grown up finally?

Emotionally, I believe I finally have...

Patience

Warning: I'm about to get a little mushy here but I know you can all handle it!

Yes, it's all about a boy... and I'm probably about to sound like a 15yr old girl

I guess I should give him a name since it seems he might be sticking around for a little bit, I'd call him Prince Charming but RD already picked that one up in her own blog... so, I'll simply use his initials and call him JS.

This boy is CUTE, and I do mean cute, adorable, sexy, whatever word you want to come up with... he has one of those cute, little boy, crooked-melt you right down to your toes smiles, he's the same age as me, 6'3", brownish hair and has these incredible blue eyes that I could stare into for hours.

don't fall for him, don't fall for him...

He's taken to calling me every night, and we talk for at least an hour each time... last night he was so cute, he had plans to meet a buddy for dinner so made it a point to call me beforehand just to say hi and chat for a bit but then he called me after he got home too, to let me know he got home ok and we ended up chatting for like an hour and a half about this & that.

too cute!

oh, one of the best parts... he's a baseball fan! I cannot tell you how hard it is to actually find a guy who likes baseball as much as I do. Like I will watch it on tv, at home, by myself. Heck, I'll even watch it online or listen on the radio. He's the same way :)

yea, I've got a crush....

This one will take time and patience though.... I know I alluded before to there being a big pink elephant in the room... he was married, he loved her, she passed away... recently. So he's still dealing with all that and isn't ready for anything too serious right now. I told him it's ok and there's no pressure and that this will be whatever it is and we'll just take it day by day. Me saying that really seemed to put him at ease and made him happy. So I'm gonna sit back and let him take the lead and just see what happens...

Patience is a Virtue, right?

TMI Tuesday- Actually on Tuesday!

See, I knew I could do it!!

1. Leather, lace or silk?

tough call... probably lace... it's sexy.. leaves a bit to the imagination but not much. Silk I could also go for, I love the feeling of it...

2. Do you subscribe (or regularly buy) to any "dirty" magazines? Which ones?

I actually have a (free) subscription to both Maxim & Stuff but the address goes to the ex's house and we don't really talk anymore so I haven't been able to get them to change the address.

3. Have you ever had sex in water (tub/pool/lake/ocean)?

yes, although I'm not much of a fan, the water washes away all the natural lubricant and it doesn't feel as good... I love making out in the water though :)

4. The three words that best describe you in bed are ____, ____, and ____. Three words that best describe your most recent partner in bed are ____, ____, and ____.

hmmm... for me I'd have to say loud, sensual and kinky, for him amazing, sensual and perfect...

5. Did you lose your virginity as an impetuous youth, "to prove that you loved" him/her, because of a romantic gesture, a newly wed or other (please describe because I can't think of what an "other" might be)?

I was actually just horny and wanted to have sex to see what it felt like, lol

Bonus (as in optional): Name three words that:

a) get you excited b) make you squirm c) make you laugh

This one I'm having a real tough time with, I could tell you things but not specifically words...

Could it be?

Could it be that I actually found a guy I want to spend more time with?

ummm... hell yes?

It's really weird, I'm kind of tetering on this edge of believing it's real, I keep wondering why *he* would really like *me* but then he calls and we talk for hours and he does the whole "I'll have to take you here" and "we'll have to do that" and ever so slightly I'm starting to slide down that edge.

RD always tells me that I don't give myself enough credit and why wouldn't he like me.. I'm beautiful, I'm nice, blah, blah, blah.... yea, maybe....

I'm going to try and be patient and ket it be what it is, there's a big pink elephant in the room that I can't contend with and only time will help it fade away. That's something I may share another time though.

He did say something kinda comforting & cute on the phone tonight though... first I must prefasce it with none of our friends know that we're *talking* and at this point in time he doesn't want them to (no, he's not married). So he wass telling me that he thinks his best friend (who is a girl) knows something is up because she keeps mentioning the fact that he's been smiling lately

That gave me little warm fuzzies :)

I know a lot of my stuff right now is fragmented and cryptic and I'm sorry, I'm still trying to get it straight in my head....

Bubbles

I love how life throws it's silly little twists & turns that we're supposed to grow and learn from. Sometimes we learn, sometimes we choose to ignore those lessons and just move on. Occasionally one of those twists brings in something so wonderful and precious... like a bubble. You're afraid if you move or even breathe for fear that it will pop.

I'm finding myself living in one of those moments right now. I'm afraid if I say or do the wrong thing the bubble will burst and I'll be left with just a memory of what could have been.

So, even though I'm impatient by nature, I'm going to try and sit back and enjoy it for what it is and what it may become and just be happy with what I've been given the opportunity to experience.

TMI Tuesday (yes, on Wednesday)

One of these days I'll actually get it done on the right day...

1. What's the sexiest type of underwear?

on a guy? boxers... I'm not a fan of the tighty whities and I don't like boxer briefs.... boxers leave something to the imagination which is so sexy to me

2. Would you/have you ever paid money for sex?
nope, I've been paid but I'd never pay for it

3. Is facial/body hair sexy or no? (Moustache, chest, etc. for men, and underarms/legs for women.) Or do you frankly not care?

I like moderate facial hair on guys.. moustache, goatee, little bit of a beard... just not a full beard or too much hair... chest hair is sexy, please trim (not shave) your parts (I hate pubes n my mouth), get rid of the back hair and it's ok to moderately trim the armpit hair....4. What is the strangest thing you've ever seen featured in pornography?oh god, I've seen the thing with the eels... please someone burn the image out of my brain

5. What's worse, not enough sex or too much? Is there such a thing as "too much"?

To me, not enough is worse... I have this insane sex drive and could have sex everyday and it still might not be enough... For me, I don't think there's such a thing as too much but, the parts do get a little sore sometimes so I'd say like 5-6 days a week is good and multiple times a day on those days would work just fine :) ... now can I find a guy with the same sex drive please!

Bonus: What's the most illegal thing you've ever done (that you can admit to, at least)? Were you caught?

hmmm.... I generally try to be a good person so I'd probably say taking illegal drugs/drinking and driving under the influence... unless shoplifting as a teenager was worse?

Moments

From the moment I looked into his beautiful blue eyes the rest of the world just melted away, time stopped and something happened. We talked for hours and as the night wore on our chairs got closer and closer together and we developed a need to touch... a hand on a leg idly drawing circles finding the others hand and giving little sqeezes, fingers brushing across a cheek, leading up to that moment where we looked into each others eyes and leaned in for that first magical kiss. Tongues caressing, tasting and exploring each others mouths.

Later he drives me home and I invite him up. We continue exploring one another, kisses trailing over to ears and down to necks. He tells me it's been a long time since he felt this way and can't stop smiling. He removes my shirt and kisses down my chest lightly sucking on my nipples, trailing his tongue to my belly button swirling, teasing, making me feel incredible. He unbuttons my jeans and pulls them off resuming the kissing from my belly button traveling down until he reaches the perfect spot. He flicks his tongue back and forth and lightly sucks, then inserts a finger, then two inside me. The incredible sensation doesn't go on long before I start to feel it building up inside me until I explode but he doesn't stop there. He continues licking and sliding his fingers in and out letting the waves of ecstacy wash over me until I can't take it anymore and I reach down to pull him up so I can taste myself on his lips. I want him inside me and he slides in so easily in one breathtaking moment. He pauses just to take in the sensation then slowly at first he starts to slided in and out of me increasing his tempo our bodies moving together as one. He makes sure he's at the perfect angle and soon I feel another orgasm starting to build. I tell him he feels so good and not to stop, he can hear in my moaning that I'm approaching that moment of release, he quickens his pace and I cry out in ecstacy as it washes over me, he slows down and savors the sensation, letting me come to my senses again then again picks up the pace. We touch, we kiss, we just enjoy the feeling of one another until he is unable to hold back any longer. We lay there holding each other then he pulls away, laying on top of me, looking into my eyes, smiling and says "this is perfect"

and it was...

TMI Tuesday- Just a little late

Yes, I know it's supposed to be HNT but I don't have any HN pics and I missed Tuesday so I figured I'd go back & answer some questions :)

1. Who was your childhood hero?

Since about the 6th grade it's been Madonna. I always admired her for her courage to do whatever she wanted to and not worry about what other people thought of her...

2. Have you ever had sex with someone who has a myspace page?

yes, I have... but I didn't meet him(them) through myspace

3. What fantasies have you openly told your partner about?

I actually have a hard time talking about my fantasies but have been very fortunate to meet a few people along the way who have been tenacious enough to get them out of me and fulfill them... I've been tied up, dominated, blindfolded, a threesome w/2 guys and generally stuff like that. I've messed around with a couple girls but the only fantasy that I haven't fully fulfilled (that I can think of) is a threesome with a guy and another girl... I'm still waiting for the right 2 people to make that happen... well, aside from the gang bang fantasy but I don't know if I'd have the guts to do that one...

4. Have you ever said you love someone but didn't mean it?

no... everytime I said it I meant it to some degree.

5. Have you ever woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you?

I've always known who the person was but there was one who I did not know his name. I had met him online and we'd been chatting through IM and the phone for a month or so and I had forgotten his name. Luckily my best friend rocks and knew what was going on so the next morning when she called I put her on the phone with him and she got it out of him for me... Davin

Bonus (as in optional): Do you remember a time when you were having sex that you smile or even laugh about now? Do tell...

LOL... I do have a story, it even has a title... Fiddler on the Roof...

A few years back I was messing around with this guy who liked to tie me up. This one night he had tied me to my bed both hands & feet and there was no way I was getting free on my own. Well, he decided he wanted to smoke a cigarette and his cigs were in his car. So he walks out the front door of my apartment and closes it behind him... *click*.. it locks. When he came back and discovered it he tried my front window and couldn't get it so ended up climbing over the roof of my apartment building and dropping down on to my balcony and coming in the back door.

I can't even image what would've happened if my back door had been locked...

don't wanna sleep...

Last night I had this dream that I was laying in bed and my grandmother was smothering me and I couldn't breathe... I don't know if I was awake or asleep but I'm pretty sure I had a panic attack...

fyi- I've been drinking tonight so please excuse me...

I didn't share yesterday because I had other things on my mind but I did end up taking home a HOT little 21yr old Saturday night, at this other bar we sometimes go to, which resulted in a few really good orgasms. This little boy had a beautiful nicely sized cock and he really knew how to use it. I was on my period a little still so there was no oral but he was able to hit all my sweet spots and I think I ended up cumming like 4 or 5 times... Now he says he's gonna check out the place I usually hang out at to see if he can find me again.... I thought that was cute.

I wish I had someone to snuggle up to tonight to chase away the bad dreams....

g'night all....

sad...

My grandma passed away today... my heart hurts

I wish I would've called her more and seen her more.... I guess I always thought I'd have time... She's not supposed to die, she's supposed to be here forever...

She always said she was going to dance at my wedding, I waited too long, now she'll never get to...

I love you grandma and I will always miss you

Happy Friday!

No big plans for the weekend... RD and I will probably go out tonight but it's that "time of the month" for me, so more than likely, nothing exciting will happen :(

Know what I was thinkin.... I haven't been tied up in a while... I started to not feel comfortable anymore around the partner I had been playing with so I kinda just let that relationship fade away. I think he knew it too cause he hasn't tried to talk to me either. I guess my mission is to find a new (dominant) kinky boy to play with...

HNT?

While in my blog cruising I kept seeing the letters HNT... I was like wth is that? So, I pulled it up on Google and it seems there is a blog phenomenon called Half Nekkid Thursdays.... woot!

This is probably the only time I'll do something like this, i'm not really one to post any type of nudity of myself (but I'm all for other people doing it!) but I do have one pic of me in a bra that I'll post for you all.

Happy HNT... enjoy!

A great 3rd & Happy 4th!

So last night ended up being a great night.

First my best friend, RD and I went out for dinner and a drink at a local cantina where they had the A's game on and stayed until the game was over...

After that we walked across the street to this little bar but it was packed so we left and headed up the street, as we're walking by we see a couple we know and they end up joining us on our way to another local bar.

We stayed there for a few hours and had a few drinks, it was kind of annoying though, our cocktail waitress completely ignored us and it was taking about 30minutes to get a drink at the bar. Around midnight my best friend and I decide to leave because she's not getting drunk or even tipsy at all due to the slow service and she's all annoyed.

So she and I head up to this bar right near my place and order a couple drinks & a couple shots and she mellows out. We end up talking to a couple nice guys, one of them is cute and he's clearly interested in her, which is good. While we were there D text messaged me to see what I was doing (yay!!!) and I asked him if he wanted to come on up to my place.

We stayed until the bar closed then RD ended up going over to that guys place and D ended up coming over and omg, again with the fantastic sex. I think I'm developing a bit of a crush on this guy, which doesn't usually happen. He's so cute, and sweet, and funny and we have the best sex. Plus he's a cuddler and I just love that. I sooo hope I get to see him again this coming weekend...

Today was pretty fun also, went to my moms for a BBQ during the day and then BBQ'd at RD's house for dinner. After that we watched the fireworks display they put on at the local Fairgrounds.

Happy 4th!!!

Happy Monday

Weekends always seem to go by so fast!!

It was a pretty good one though.

Friday after work I went and met some friends for drinks and stayed there for a bit then later my best friend.. we'll call her RD, and I headed on over to our local hangout to have a couple drinks see what's going on.

Let me take you back a bit here... about 3 weeks ago RD and I were at the bar, she got drunk and ended up walking home so I introduced myself to this really cute guy and his roommate. I was drunk, he was drunk, I end up going home with him, we have some good sex, I stay the night and he drives me back to my car in the morning. Didn't ask for my phone number or anything. As I'm driving home I'm thinking, he didn't ask for my phone number, what the hell, then I realize, I've just had my first true one night stand! Don't get me wrong, there have been plenty of guys who I've only slept with once but if it was someone I met online it was prefaced by an IM conversation and a phone call or two or if ti was someone I met out in the world, phone numbers were exchanged.

So, moving back to friday night, we go to the bar and sit down on the end, there are people playing pool behind us but I don't pay them any attention, after a few minutes I go to the bathroom and on my way back I look over to the pool table and there is my one night stand!! I have no idea what to do! Do I acknowledge his presence? He's with his roommate and a girl, and I don't want to interrupt it if he's trying to get with her. So I just sit at the end of the bar with my back to him pretending I don't see him, lol. A while later I go to the bathroom again and when I came out he was standing righ there (awww, how cute) I say hello, he says hello and gives me a big hug and asks why I didn't come say hi to him, I told him it wasd because he was with another girl, turns out that's the 3rd roommate I didn't meet the first night so it's all good. He brings me over and introduces me to her and I chat with the three of them for a bit then I go back over to RD. As the night progressed RD and I ended up sitting over by my one night stand and his roommates and I get the idea that I'm going to hook up RD with the roommate so I can go home with my little hottie again and everybody is all good with it. So we end up going back to their place and my one night stand becomes a two night stand. We fucked for what seemed like hours, he went down on me a little bit & I did the same. We fell asleep and he woke me up, I think, around 5am and we did it all over again until the sun was up, then fell back asleep.

Now, here's the kicker... after I woke up I go to grab my phone to text RD to see if she's ok and when she wants to leave and my little text message thing is showing on my phone so I go to look and I have not one but THREE text messages from D at 1:51, 2:07 and 2:15 basically checking to see if I'm still up.... Murphy's Law ya know :( I swear I probably would've left my one night stand to go see him had I heard my phone.....

oh well, I'm crossing all my parts that I still have a shot at a next time...