TMI #94

1. Toilet paper: over, under, or what the hell are you talking about?
under... but I think that's wrong, I think the *proper* way is supposed to be over....

2. Toilet when you are done: everything up, seat down but lid up, everything down?
seat down, lid up... I live alone so don't have to worry about annoying anyone...

3. When was the last time you kissed someone not your significant other? [I am talking about a kiss with some gusto not just a little hello or goodbye peck]
well... that would be Sunday... he's not really my SO, we just started hanging out a couple weeks ago...

4. Would you rather have you significant other (this can be a hypothetical SO) have sex with someone else or fall in love with someone else? [You have to pick one.]
ug, both horrible choices, I'll take the sex though... to have your SO fall in love with someone else is just too much...

5. If you had $1,000,000 to give away, how would you divide it up? Who and how much?
I'm sure I'm supposed to say a few random charities here but I think If I had to slpit it up it would go around to my family & friends... how cool would that be to pay off my moms house & cars for her, same with my sister... give a bunch to my cosest friends to pay off their bills, car and a down on a house...

Bonus (as in optional): Tell us something that very few people know about you.
hmmm... this is a tough one.... the only thing I can maybe think of is there was this one time with this guy and a strap-on...

Happy Tuesday!

Another Moment

I love how we are never able to make it through a movie....

We'll be sitting on the couch and I'll catch you looking over at me and smiling that adorable grin that just begs for a kiss so I'll kiss you, no tongue at first just sliding my teeth across your bottom lip but I can't seem to pull away and stop so they get more urgent and tongue touches tongue fingers pull on hair and grip clothing. Your hand moves down to gently cup my breast and lightly pinch my nipple causing me to gasp then you run your fingers down my body and rest them between my legs and start rubbing my clit through my jeans. This draws a moan from me and I dig my nails into the back of your neck.

You stand up and take me by the hand, leading me to the bedroom. We help each other out of our clothes and you start to guide me to the bed but this time I want to please you, you're always so sweet to me. I turn you a & push you back down on to the bed, following you I bend down and slowly lick you up your thigh drawing a sharp breath from you. I move over to the other side and do the same thing this time rubbing my cheek against your hardness as I continue licking up to your stomach, my tongue circling your belly button, teasing you... I then go back down and start by slowly licking your hardness from base to tip circling around the top when I get there then closing my lips over you and lightly sucking. I tease you for a bit, just sucking on the tip, barely going down then in one motion I go down taking as much of you into my mouth as I can, causing you to cry out. I stay there for a few seconds, letting you savor the sensation before I start moving up and down on you slowly at first then picking up the pace, using my tongue at the same time, driving you crazy... god, I love listening to you.

You get to the point where you can't take it anymore and need to be inside me, you grab my arms and pull me up on top of you sliding into me. We both move to meet each others strokes, savoring the incredible feeling of being so close, so deep inside one another until we reach the point where we can't hold back any longer and explode into one another.

We lay there shaking, holding each other and I close my eyes and just smile...

thank you...

Whatever higher power it is out there currently working in my favor, I say thank you... I'm having an amazing time right now.

Please let it continue...

Rambling on...

Lately I've realized that I'm truly happy for just about the first time in my life (did I write about this already?). I mean, I haven't always been a miserable person or anything, I just kinda always felt likesomething was missing from my life. I know, now you're thinking it's because I me I met JS but it's not, I've been feeling like this for a while now. I used to be the friend who it's next to impossible to get me to commit to anything social and usually making up my mind kicking & screaming at the last minute. Of course, any time I did go out I'd usually have a fabulous time and ended up being the one who went home last.

Not so much this year.

This year I'm the girl who wants to be out every night living it up! I have discovered that I love hanging out at bars, I've met some of the best people there recently. No, I am not your typical barfly... and I hate that term. I've also discovered that I'm hot... I've always known that I'm pretty and never really had a problem attracting guys but it's been really interesting to go to a bar, pick out the guy that I want to take home and actually accomplish it just about every time. Yes, guys are horny but I'm picky so it's not like I'm goin home with the desperate ones.. ohhhh, no.... if I'm naked, you're hot too.

oh yea, so back to being happy.... it's a trip and I like it. I smile all the time, I like being out and meeting new people and I'm not afraid to be the person who starts the conversation with someone new. I'm even finally ok with going places by myself. I'm really having a good time and I've realized that while I'd love to have someone to share my life with, I don't *need* someone. Wow, that took HOW long?

Have I grown up finally?

Emotionally, I believe I finally have...

Patience

Warning: I'm about to get a little mushy here but I know you can all handle it!

Yes, it's all about a boy... and I'm probably about to sound like a 15yr old girl

I guess I should give him a name since it seems he might be sticking around for a little bit, I'd call him Prince Charming but RD already picked that one up in her own blog... so, I'll simply use his initials and call him JS.

This boy is CUTE, and I do mean cute, adorable, sexy, whatever word you want to come up with... he has one of those cute, little boy, crooked-melt you right down to your toes smiles, he's the same age as me, 6'3", brownish hair and has these incredible blue eyes that I could stare into for hours.

don't fall for him, don't fall for him...

He's taken to calling me every night, and we talk for at least an hour each time... last night he was so cute, he had plans to meet a buddy for dinner so made it a point to call me beforehand just to say hi and chat for a bit but then he called me after he got home too, to let me know he got home ok and we ended up chatting for like an hour and a half about this & that.

too cute!

oh, one of the best parts... he's a baseball fan! I cannot tell you how hard it is to actually find a guy who likes baseball as much as I do. Like I will watch it on tv, at home, by myself. Heck, I'll even watch it online or listen on the radio. He's the same way :)

yea, I've got a crush....

This one will take time and patience though.... I know I alluded before to there being a big pink elephant in the room... he was married, he loved her, she passed away... recently. So he's still dealing with all that and isn't ready for anything too serious right now. I told him it's ok and there's no pressure and that this will be whatever it is and we'll just take it day by day. Me saying that really seemed to put him at ease and made him happy. So I'm gonna sit back and let him take the lead and just see what happens...

Patience is a Virtue, right?

TMI Tuesday- Actually on Tuesday!

See, I knew I could do it!!

1. Leather, lace or silk?

tough call... probably lace... it's sexy.. leaves a bit to the imagination but not much. Silk I could also go for, I love the feeling of it...

2. Do you subscribe (or regularly buy) to any "dirty" magazines? Which ones?

I actually have a (free) subscription to both Maxim & Stuff but the address goes to the ex's house and we don't really talk anymore so I haven't been able to get them to change the address.

3. Have you ever had sex in water (tub/pool/lake/ocean)?

yes, although I'm not much of a fan, the water washes away all the natural lubricant and it doesn't feel as good... I love making out in the water though :)

4. The three words that best describe you in bed are ____, ____, and ____. Three words that best describe your most recent partner in bed are ____, ____, and ____.

hmmm... for me I'd have to say loud, sensual and kinky, for him amazing, sensual and perfect...

5. Did you lose your virginity as an impetuous youth, "to prove that you loved" him/her, because of a romantic gesture, a newly wed or other (please describe because I can't think of what an "other" might be)?

I was actually just horny and wanted to have sex to see what it felt like, lol

Bonus (as in optional): Name three words that:

a) get you excited b) make you squirm c) make you laugh

This one I'm having a real tough time with, I could tell you things but not specifically words...

Could it be?

Could it be that I actually found a guy I want to spend more time with?

ummm... hell yes?

It's really weird, I'm kind of tetering on this edge of believing it's real, I keep wondering why *he* would really like *me* but then he calls and we talk for hours and he does the whole "I'll have to take you here" and "we'll have to do that" and ever so slightly I'm starting to slide down that edge.

RD always tells me that I don't give myself enough credit and why wouldn't he like me.. I'm beautiful, I'm nice, blah, blah, blah.... yea, maybe....

I'm going to try and be patient and ket it be what it is, there's a big pink elephant in the room that I can't contend with and only time will help it fade away. That's something I may share another time though.

He did say something kinda comforting & cute on the phone tonight though... first I must prefasce it with none of our friends know that we're *talking* and at this point in time he doesn't want them to (no, he's not married). So he wass telling me that he thinks his best friend (who is a girl) knows something is up because she keeps mentioning the fact that he's been smiling lately

That gave me little warm fuzzies :)

I know a lot of my stuff right now is fragmented and cryptic and I'm sorry, I'm still trying to get it straight in my head....