oops, I almost missed HNT

shame on me...

I'm a little stressed out at work these days. I can't talk to my boss anymore and it's really frustrating. I call him up and he's always too busy to listen to what I have to say then forgets to call me back. On top of that, he always forgets stuff so I have to remind him multiple times and he gets all pissy when it's something he remembered or something he didn't and he already has alternate plans.

So, needless to say, a few months ago I started having this really weird burning pain in my chest, at first I thought it was my lungs because I have mild asthma but my inhaler didn't help at all. The pain would only last for about an hour or so then go away. Well, about 2 1/2 weeks ago the pain started up again and hasn't stopped since. I was waking up in the middle of the night just wanting to cry it hurt so bad. I tried, I think Tums & Maalox with no results so I emailed my Dctor and he told me to try Pepcid for a week to see what happens. His suspicion is that I have GERD. Whetever it is it hurts and needs to go away, lol.

Anyways, this week for HNT I'm giving RD a little payback for calling me out in my comments (she knows about it) and posting a pic of her in a bra... followed by a couple of me :)
HHNT!!

WW#41... The Naked Truth

I believe this is my first Wet Wednesday post... go me... If you'd like to play along check it out

1. how thin is TOO thin for you in a lover? is it someone like kate bosworth, posh spice, or mark anthony?
I'm sittin here trying to figure out how exactly to answer this question.... I actually prefer guys with a little meat on their bones. I love big arms & chests, you don't need to have 6-pack abs to impress me. In fact, I'd take the imperfect guy before the perfect guy 9 times out of ten... oh, except I'd take Brad Pitt, Johnny Depp or Vin Diesel any day of the week :) ... I'm the same way with girls, eat a damn cheeseburger... I don't want to see your collarbone or your ribs...




2. how 'large' is too big for you in a lover? (i'm not going to list any names as terms like large, overweight, and big are all part of individual taste - but feel free to list celeb names, etc.)
Just be or be close to height/weight proportionate... even though John Goodman is funny I don't find him sexy...

3. if you were to get a new lover and this weekend was your first time having sex with them. how would you feel about them seeing you nude? is a look in the mirror in the buff cringe-worthy, or are you lookin' pretty damn good?

oh, I cringe, lol.... and it really all depends on the guy, what they like and how comfortable they make you feel about yourself.

Happy Hump Day... I wish many orgasms to all!!!!

TMI #100

Happy TMI!

Come play!

1. Where was the first place you ever had sex?
heh... in a bathroom in a bench... like the bathrooms they have at the swimming pool of an apartment complex... not very romantic, I know... I just wanted to have sex!

2. Does size matter? (open to interpretation boys and girls)
I'd like to say no but lets be honest, of course it does. You've gotta be able to feel it and it's gotta feel good! and... there really is such a thing as too big!

3. Have you ever had sex in your office or your place of employment?
no, but good lord that would be hot...

4. Ever been skinny dipping?
yes, not for many, many years though... oh, except naked hot tubbing earlier this year

5. Top or bottom?
top or bottom what??

Bonus: Where were you September 11, 2001? What were you doing when you first heard about the twin towers?
I remember getting in my bar to go to work and the radio was on and the DJ's were chatting about something and I didn't really want to listen so I put a cd in. Then when I walked into work everyone was looking at the news on the internet and talking about what happened. I didn't really comprehend the magnitude of it until a few minutes later we watched the 2nd plane fly into the 2nd tower... then I was speechless and so, so sad. I'm not religious and I don't ever go to church but one of my friends/co-workers at the time was and later that day I went with him to church to pray and light a candle for everyone involved that day.

So much for doctors orders...

and damn he was persistent....

yes, I had sex this weekend

It was great

damnit

but really... Friday night I let Country Boy come home with me, nothing happened that night but the next morning he did the whole kissing me all over teasing thing until I let him get my panties off for some fantastic oral... ok, he knows I can't have sex yet but damn if this boy isn't good at the art of seduction. After I came he laid down behind me spooning me and wrapped his arms around me. He was kinda kissin on my neck and back a bit and was hard so he put his cock between my legs. Being all wet from the orgasm a few minutes prior, it slid between them pretty easily. He didn't try to put it inside me at first, he was just moving back & forth, rubbin on my clit and teasing the heck out of me...so of course he got me to the point where when he finally did slide inside me I didn't say no... and omg, wow did that feel good. He went slow (at first) and kept checking to make sure he wasn't hurting me, it was sweet...

There's more but that's all I'm gonna share right now... I still have mixed feelings about him. His persistence is starting to wear me down but I'm not ready to give up being single quite yet. I'm having so much fun in my life without one specific someone. Plus, I still get a little sad everytime I see JS and it's not fair to bring anyone else into my life while I'm still doing that.

So, for now I'll have fun with it and continute to be open and honest about what i'm feeling and just kinda go from there.

OOC

Here, let me translate...

Out
Of
Control

yep, that's me.

Last night around six Country Boy was text messaging me and said he was down at the bar and could he buy me a drink or two. At first I said no but gave in and decided to go down there around nine. He bought me a drink and we sat down across from each other at a table a little ways away from the bar. He was in the booth part and I was in a chair across from him, kinda sideways so I could see what was going on behind me at the pool tables & bar. The friend he was there with sat in a chair near where I was. So, the three of us were chattin about this & that when this girl came over, sat down next to him and started talking to him. His friend immediately got up and went over to the pool tables and I kinda turned sideways so I wouldn't be all up in their conversation.

The music was loud and I don't hear very well plus he's not my boyfriend and what he does in his life is really none of my business but I could hear that she was trying to get him to go home with her. He kept telling her no and she was asking why and he wouldn't tell her. I know that was more for my sake than anything, he knows I want space and for him to take his time so he's not gonna tell someone that he's there with me or anything assumptive like that. So the girl then said something about him asking her to come down there & he replied saying it was to hang out nothing more. She also mentioned something about him kissin up on her earlier in the night and then asked if I was the reason he didn't want to leave with her... luckily around that time the bartender, who is a friend of mine, came walking by and saw the look on my face and figured out what was going on so she came over and stood right next to me and struck up a conversation until that girl got the hint and left to go sit back at the bar.

You'd think that was it right? Not so much. Like 2 minutes after the bartender left the girl came back over and leaned down to talk to him. At this point I was done with the b.s. so I just stood up without a word and walked away, on over to the bar. I wasn't watching but when I got to the bar I was told as soon as I got up to walk away he got up and walked outside, leaving her there. The girl ended up leaving altogether not too much later and he came back inside. He then came over to where I was kissed my hand & said he was really sorry about all that and would I like to come sit with him at the bar. I agreed and we went over and sat down.

He ended up playing pool with the friend he was there with and between shots we kinda talked. Then the strangest thing happened that kinda pissed me off a little bit... It was close to 11(my bedtime) and I had finished my drink so I was thinkin about maybe going home soon but he asked if he could buy me another. I figured I'd have one more with him then go home. Oh no.... I got my drink, he paid for it then said he was leaving... wtf.... After all the asking all week for me to hang out with him, I finally give in and do it then he decides to leave me... by myself... with a full drink... at the bar.... He knew I was pissed too, and know what he said to me as he was leaving... just trying to give you your space so you'll want me more.

son of a...

you know what... it effin worked

I was so mad that not even five minutes after he left I got up, left my full drink on the bar and went home. I sent him a bitchy text message and of course he sent a nice one back.. we ended up trading text messages and I finally calmed down then around 12:30 we finally got to him asking if he could come over & make it up to me... what was I gonna say, no? :) The whole oral sex through the panties thing is so erotic... this time tough, he did manage to talk me into letting him take them off... and oh my god... this boy has some skills.... he's perfect with the gentle teasing at first then knows when to apply more pressure and speed later... none of that hard sucking that I just don't like... gotta be gentle with me :)

I told RD not to let me take him home Saturday night when we go there...

I refuse to let his persistence wear me down...

boy issues, I need a new job and some HNT

I didn't want to take away from my weekend story(cause it really was damn hot!) but my country boy is actually driving me crazy... and not the good kind of crazy.

This poor boy has such a huge crush on me and wants more from me than I want to or am willing to give and I feel kinda bad about it. I keep telling him, and have been telling him from the beginning that I need space and that I'm not ready for anything serious right now. He knows, but I have to keep reminding him, that it was only a week ago I stopped seeing someone I really liked. He text messages me all the time, which I don't mind, the problem is that every day he asks me out. I usually side-step it by saying something about him being persistent but yesterday I was done with all that. I told him it would be nice for once to have a conversation with him that doesn't include him asking me out.... In my experience that would've pushed most guys away, but not him.. he replied "I can do that"

He's too nice for me...

I want a nice guy but I want someone who is going to stand up to me and take the lead and be my partner, not my pet.

One thing he really doesn't have working in his favor is that I'm a Virgo and he's an Aquarius. Don't get me wrong, I love Aquarius, both my sister and RD fall under that sign and they are some of the sweetest people around, it's just not the right sign for a Virgo to be in a relationship with...

Here's something I found about the compatability...

VirgoWoman & Aquarius Man
This is not a very good match for either one of you. You may be drawn to the Aquarius boy because he shares with you an intellectual, logical way of looking at the world. However, he is also a dreamer who spends a lot of his time theorizing about the future and chasing wild ideas tosee where they lead. Meanwhile, you’re stuck doing all the practical stuff. He’s the type of guy, with you, who will try to get you to do his homework so he can figure out how to reconfigure his computer. You’ll feel used, and you’ll get extremely frustrated at his head-in-the-sky behaviour, but you won’t be able to change him. A difficult match that’s better left unmade.

This unlikely combo can be filled with plenty of activity and adventure. Virgo girl is intrigued by Aquarius boy's far-flung ideas and downright dreaminess. Just remember, Virgo, that not everyone can be as organized and with—it as you, so cut your guy a break when he's not as quick as you are!

I told RD I'd give it a try though, just to see what happens... and I have been... I just don't have any of that spark like I had with JS or even DM.... it sucks it couldn't be just a casual thing 'cause based on last weekend I think he'd be a lot of fun in bed...

On a different note... I need a new job.

I used to love my job but now I'm no longer having any fun at it and I don't look forward to coming to work anymore. I can't get any time off because there's no one to cover my shifts and I've been working 10hr+ days with no additional compensation (I'm the manager & salaried). Plus I have a lot of resentment towards my boss for having me work and not being very compassionate after my surgery.

So, of all things, I think I've decided that I want to go and be a Bartender. Everyone I mention it to thinks I'd be really great at it and that it's the perfect job for me. I'm such a night and social person and it just seems like my kind of thing. It just seems like something I'd have fun doing. I'm going to wait until after my birthday and after I'm all healed and I'm going to look into doing it.

ok, so it's I don't have a pic of my Fredericks shoes this week but I haven't forgotten! Hopefully you're not tired of my lips or my eyes yet!

Hear No Evil

Speak No Evil

See No Evil

HHNT!!

what a weekend... oops.. and some TMI

ok, so if I was a guy right now I'd be typing "I swear, I don't know how to keep my dick in my pants"... oh wait... I typed it anyways... You'd even think me having surgery would keep my pants on since I'm not allowed to have sex for 2 more weeks...

yea right, nice try...

So, Friday night I had actually planned on staying home and finishing up an online course that I had to take but my best guy friend called to say he and his wife were on their way to the bar and I should meet them there. Now how could I say no to that :) So I go, we drink & have a blast and then things get kinda fuzzy.

I know the country boy showed up while my friends were still there and was watching me from across the bar because onbe of my friends kept commenting on it. I know that after my friends left at some point I ended up going to talk to him and I was at the bar till it closed. I know he drove me home and my drunk ass ended up inviting him in...

d'oh...

We didn't really do much that night, I was so tired I just wanted to fall asleep. He did ask for a kiss though and we ended up making out and he ended up kissing me all over. He knew I couldn't have sex yet but damn that boy if he didn't keep trying to get down my panties, lol. I kept having to tell him no and push him away because I'm still healing and still had a couple sutures... did he give up, oh no... instead while kissing me he took his hand and lightly over my panties stroked my clit until I came... after that he conceded and took me into his arms and I fell asleep (passed out)

does it end there?

oh no...

So the next morning I wake up to him running his fingers down my arm and my back, he gave me a back massage then kissed the back of my neck, down my back, my butt, the backs of my legs and my feet... I had chills running up & down my whole body, it was incredible... he turned me over and did the same thing down the front... kissing and running his tongue down my neck, my breasts, my tummy, my thighs, knees, calves, ankles & feet... on his way down he tried to stop at my panties and I pushed him away so sneaky thing he was.... from my feet he started to move back up kissing and tickling to my thighs where he slowly ran his tongue up my inner thigh just to the edge of my panties then went across to the other side and did the same. He did this a few times until I was very much turned on then as he was moving from one side to the other he'd run his tongue across my panties over my clit... as you can imagine it only took a couple times of doing that before I wasn't pushing him away any more. He then proceeded to lick me through my panties, playing with my clit with his tongue... it was actually one of the more erotic things I've experienced. When I came, I came hard...

I let him stay with me Sat night also ;)

It's gonna be an issue though... he really likes me and I'm not looking for anything more than fun... kinda sucks cause I think he'd be really fun in bed...

Now for some TMI!

1. What did you eat for dinner yesterday?
meatloaf & salad.. yum

2. How much cash is in your purse/wallet right now?
none, it's all in my pocket

3. What have you done to avoid being flirted with by someone you didn't like?
Try to find a nice way out of the conversation and if that doesn't work I'll usually make some rude-ish comment to try to help them get the picture...

4. Do you believe the theory "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
In my experience it's usually true but I do believe that people can change if they really want to.

5. Describe your sex life in two words.
fun & interesting

Bonus (as in optional): Would you/have you ever paid money for sex?
nope, no need ;)